To be HONEST

Love feels like a game and I hate trying to figure out the rules and play by them. I guess the lesson is that there aren’t any rules (in love and war…) but still it feels like there are.
However, I’ve been dating a guy who drives me insane of confusion. I have no idea what he feels and what he wants me to think. I can’t read his signs.
But what I hate the most is that I like him more and more. I am about to fall, or at least I try to convince myself that I haven’t completely yet. Because if I fall and he doesn’t catch me, I will hit the ground hard, again, and it will hurt. I still have bruises since the last time…
All I want is for him to be honest and say “Hey, I like you a lot but I’m a bit scared of rejection and taking first steps ” or “Hey, lets just be friends and nothing more”. I hate not knowing.
But then I have to ask myself the same question. Which signals am I sending? Am I being clear or am I just wanting for him? The thing is that I have taken most initiative this far. Perhaps I need to be forward again and ask for what he wants. But I am afraid of scaring him away. Yet if I do his feelings aren’t strong enough and by that not worth fighting for, right?
Yeez, I have to stop analysing! I’m going nuts. Why do I have to like him so much?